kinda blah but trying not to stress

how do i end up in situations like this? i would call myself a smart girl. yet, here i am. in a not smart situation. i started out so pissed off. i don't even know how it got so out of hand. it will not be happening again.

it could have just as easily been me to send this to postsecret. fitting that it was posted today.

personal dna

You are an Experiencer

Your inquisitive nature, imagination, and hands-on practicality make you an EXPERIENCER.

Although you have an active imagination, you also concern yourself with the functional elements of things.

You are willing to experiment to find things that work the most efficiently.

Getting stuck in certain habits is boring to you—you'd rather find new experiences.

Accordingly, experiences are more important to you than objects—you'd rather spend your money and energy on events and adventures than on material things.

You like to contemplate a lot of options before making a decision, and you're willing and able to consider a lot of different angles to problems.

You're open to suggestions, and often rely on others to assess the merit of those suggestions.

You have an ability to see the big picture—not just how things are, but how they could be—in a variety of situations.

You're well-attuned to your emotional state, and not afraid to use your feelings to guide you. You tend to be cooperative, rarely contradicting others, and always considerate of their feelings.

Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.

If you want to be different:

Have faith that your imagination and practicality will complement each other, and lead to good decisions on your part.

Take the initiative in seeking things out—don't wait for them to come to you.
how you relate to others

You are Benevolent

You are a great person to interact with—understanding, giving, and trusting—in a word, BENEVOLENT

You don't mind being in social situations, as you feel comfortable enough with people to be yourself.

Your caring nature goes beyond a basic concern: you take the time to understand the nuances of people's situations before passing any sort of judgment.

You're a good listener, and even better at offering advice.

You're concerned with others at both an individual and societal level—you sympathize with the plights of troubled groups, and you can care about people you've never met.

Considering many different perspectives is something at which you excel, and you appreciate that quality in others.

Other people's feelings are important to you, and you're good at mediating disputes.

Because of your understanding and patience, you tend to bring out the best in people.

If you want to be different:

You spend a lot of time taking care of others, but don't forget to take care of yourself!

Sometimes you can get overcommitted, and when you sacrifice spending time with those close to you, it can make them feel unimportant.

funniest thing ever.

do you smell something burning?

i do. i think it's some liar pants on fire.

why do people have to say things they don't mean? is it an attempt to save my feelings? because it doesn't work. my attempt to be less trusting is not coming along very well. but why wouldn't i believe someone when they say they'll call after their busy next few days? especially after they've called about 10 times already?

i need to stop caring. and the thing is, i didn't care. not at all. until the satement that there would be a call in a few days. then i started waiting for the call. and started caring. silly me.

exhausted.

what a week. if the rest of the summer is this exhausting, i'm going to need to take a week off before school starts. i really like working with kids, but there are some kids that i just can't handle. kicking kids out of day camp is a difficult thing to do but sometimes it just needs to happen. but it kinda broke my heart.