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it is a well known fact that i think anderson cooper is fantastic. but just right now, i think he's even more fantastic.

he's talking to erica about 'the shot' and its some baseball guy arguing with the umpires but stops for the national amthem. and then as soon as it's over, he's right back in their faces. anderson thought it was great and said, "...as soon as the anthem ends, he's bam! [punches hand with fist] right back into it."

it's funny little things like that, that make him seem like an actual person and not just some robot reading the news.

and that is one reason why i think anderson cooper is fantastic.

no creative title.

tomorrow is a day full of....not lasts...just....reductions. does that make sense? because i'm not going to stop working for who i work for. i'm just going to work less and not from the office. and i'm not going to stop partying after tomorrow night, i'm just going to do it way less. so i don't want to look at it as a total ending. i'd be happy if the work thing was actually the end, but everyone needs money so i gotta keep working. and then there will be saturdays. my saturday job is going to be my lifesaver. you're all still invited to come down any saturday for a visit. starting next week.

so today was my last friday lunch. even thought it's not friday. tomorrow there are going to be a few people not at work so we went today. pogue fado. finally. so happy. today i also discovered some skills that i do not have. first, using a phone. haha its funny because yesterday i was ripping up someone for not knowing how to send an e-mail and today i don't know how to use a phone. i don't mean just a phone in general. i mean like an actual phone system for a fully functional call centre taking calls for a ton of different clients. i got thrown into helping test a phone system and it was all new to me. the second thing i realized as a skill i do not have is drilling. i sucked at drilling 1.5 inch holes through pieces of plywood. the holes were all shaky and jagged. but other people's were awesome. and i was very nervous of all the flying bits of wood. so i went back to my new and improved google sitemap. maybe i am a geek.

i'm watching jag [yeah see? geek]. it's "a week of romance" so all the shows are about harm and mac and their star-crossed love [what the hell kind of name is harm, anyway?]. but i guess its not actually star-crossed. in the very end they end up together. either way, i never want to spend nine years in love with someone who is also in love with me but we're not together. if you're in love with someone, just go for it! what is the problem! i just don't get it. why drag it out and make it painful for everyone when it would be so easy to fix everything. and maybe it doesn't work out. but i'd rather give it a shot then spend 9 years [or even 9 months] just having it hover over me. i mean, i guess i understand it in this context of the show. you can't just have your main characters get together in season 2. you know people thirst for the sexual tension. the same stupid thing happened with the x-files. the whole mulder and scully being in love but not together. everytime their hands brushed against each other people went into a frenzy [and it's official. geek.]. but in real life do people spend years in love with someone with no resolution? that's retarded.

aaaaaaanyway......i bought new jeans today. yup. there goes cash that i just don't have. and beer tomorrow night. that will be fun but i may or may not be able to afford my text books. scared. what's more important? one more shameless night at cheers before a few months of no shameless nights, or textbooks for the learning? conundrum!

jon stewart and stephen colbert: gods

way to go youtube. i knew it would happen.
he just said what we were all thinking.

p.s. i like that stephen colbert wears cuff-links. well done mr colbert. well done.

stevie y's #19

so when you spend all day waiting for pages to load due to the slow-ass ip address, you spend a lot of time using a different browser with a different ip address to read wonderful things on the internet [ie john mayer and jessica simpson]. sometimes the stuff you stumble across is actually wonderful. detroit is going to retire steve yzerman's number! that's great. he deserves it. he played his entire career with detroit and did a kick ass job. he's been the captain since forever. it's the feel good story of the day. and you can read it here.

oh john mayer...

what are you thinking!! jessica simpson?! really? that breaks my heart...
saddest story ever

cubicles aren't soundproof

it's funny when you can hear your co-workers gossiping. i don't know what they think about the sound proofness of their cubicles, but i'm here to say, they aren't sound proof. so our office is moving. just to another floor of the same building so we have more space. the tech department is getting it's own, walled in area. there is no door, but there are walls. the walls are glass on 2 of the sides and the back wall is the doors to the server room and stuff like that. we're the only ones who need access to the server room. so the people who work in the other departments are just going to be in cubicles in their own sections. exactly like it is now. so the department that is directly next to the tech team right now is who i overheard talking this morning. one woman is saying, have you seen the progress on the new office? and the rest of them are like, yeah, it's looking good. and she says, do you know where we're gonna be? and someone says, just in cubicles on one side. and she says, you know where i'd like to be? in that little room with the windows. and someone says, that's going to be the tech team. and she says, yeah i know. what's up with that? not fair at all, eh? and the guy says, yeah i was down there and talking to the contractor and asked about the room and he said, yeah, that's where the computer geeks are going. and they all start laughing! and the woman goes, they are all geeks, aren't they! laugh, laugh. and the guy says, i know! they are! and then some other girl says, they're hiring, you know? but you need to pass a drug test. and the woman goes, i should apply and just take a lot of drugs just for the test. and they all laugh. i mean, COME ON!! are you kidding me?! first of all, you don't need to take drugs just for the drug test. you know you'd fail it anyway. second, don't bother applying, because you need to be considered for the job before you take the drug test. and knowing how to send an e-mail is a requirement. we're not going to teach you how to do that. third, grow the hell up!

2.5 days. sweet.

does that put you across the line?

i did the drawing. and the text. however, i want to say that the tshirt is too much, but i don't know that i have any right to critisize line crossing. and that's all i have to say about that.

all day i've kept thinking that tomorrow is thursday. but it's not. it's wednesday. which in some ways is awful, but in other ways, fantastic. i want this week to end because i'm looking forward to the weekend, and this friday means the end of the job from hell. which is cause for MUCH celebration. however. this friday also means school starts in a week, and my last weekend of partying for quite some time. which is sad for some reasons [good people, fun times], but not at all for others [save money, save liver]. wow. i have a totally happy-sad outlook on everything. but i am not sad about having all next week off. free to do whatever i want, at any time of the day. my 9-5 is free, FREE!!! wanna hang out in the middle of the day? i can do it next week! except friday. i have class friday. but no money to pay for these classes. one thing i learned this summer is, do not wait until mid august to apply for your student loan.

i'm no samantha, but i definitely know how she felt there. sometimes, you just feel like a giant.
....a horny smurf? i just don't know.

hmmm....a corset, eh?

i really wish that i could update this blog as things pop into my head. it would make it so much more interesting.

first of all, i got to see some great people who are leaving the province very soon and probably won't see again for a very long time. the blushing bride and her husband from a few weeks ago, and t the wonder co-worker are leaving. it was great to sit and chat and laugh over a beer before it all comes to an end. but i have an open invitation and my very own floor spot for crashing with the newly weds in england. so maybe i need to try to save up enough for a plane ticket... they gave me a great game as a thank you for designing their bookmarks and doing the layout for their bulletins for the wedding. now i just need someone to play it with. who likes board games? it was great times except we were going to go to the pogue fado. and if you've talked to me at all in the last month, you know i've been going crazy craving pogue food. so i was pumped. but we got to the pogue and it was closed for a staff party! come on! so we went to the duck. which is good, and the whole point was the company, not the food, but still! i need some pogue! who wants to go to the pogue? anyone? i know someone does.

so anyway, i left there and walked down to the ferry. i love the ferry. its probably one of my favourite things about halifax. one of my not so favourite things? the frigging harbour hopper. damn i hate that thing. its an embarrassment to the city. its so ugly and annoying. and from the harbour hopper this evening, i could see people taking pictures of the ferry. ok. i do love the ferry, for its people moving purposes and for the fact that you're on the water and you get some fresh air. despite the fact that you're on the harbour. but i do not like what the ferry looks like. big gross dumpy bath tub looking thing. why do you want pictures of that? i sure don't. anyway, i digress. i was sitting up on top of the ferry thinking that it was probably going to rain and happy that i had my jacket. just incase. and just before the ferry starts to pull away, this woman walks from the back and sits down close to the front. normal enough. except, she's wearing a lifejacket. uh huh. that's right. so, because i have an active imagination, i start thinking up all kinds of interesting things. like, does she know something i don't? is this boat going to sink? and i start trying to judge distances to the closest shoreline and wondering if my swimming abilities are still strong enough. i start thinking about the woman [not the lifejacket woman] and the three kids and how i would try to help her because there is no way the three kids can swim to shore. that's just how my brain works. anyway, one of the ferry workers comes down and starts talking to the lifejacket woman. he asks her if it is one of the ferry's lifejackets. she says yes. and he says, why are you wearing it? and she says, i saw it on the video [safety video that plays on a loop as you wait to board the ferry]. and he says, you don't have to wear it right now you know. and he puts his hand on her shoulder. and she flips. she starts screaming, STOP TOUCHING MY BODY!!!! and he goes, just make sure you put it back before you get off the boat. and she screams, GET YOUR HAND OFF ME YOU ASS HOLE!!! and he says, don't talk to me like that. and she says, THEN STOP TOUCHING ME ASS HOLE!! and at this point, he has stopped touching her before she even stopped screaming the first time. and he says, yeah, just go sleep it off. you'll feel better tomorrow. and walks away. and everyone on the ferry is laughing. i never want to be that person.

so off the ferry and onto the bus. which isn't exactly the bus i need to take me right home. so i have to get off and walk about 15 minutes to my house. which is fine. but its dark. on the ipod? jay-z/linkin park smash up at full volume. it's perfect walking home alone in the dark through my not totally, but a little bit scary area music. because it makes you feel tough enough that you could take on any little thug wannabe that may come your way for no good reason other than the fact that they think they're tough. but they're not. because they hang out in the school parking lot with their not hot cars.

anyway, it was a fabulous night because i got to see the girls. they're off to bigger and better things and i hope it all goes wonderfully for them. i really do. and i hope that when t the wonder co-worker gets back here in a years time, we get to be co-workers again.

and if anyone would like to make a donation to the "crash on the newlyweds floor" fund, you know where to find me.

my favourite website

my favourite website is space.com. for real. i've been here for half an hour and, being the productive employee that i am, i've spent that entire time reading articles on space.com. maybe i'm a huge space nerd but that's just how it's gonna be.

say cheese!

so here are some interesting pics from friday night's outting to the copper penny. oh the camera phone. what an amazing invention...

waiting is boring.

i'm ready to leave now. the phone call can come any time. i'm so bored. i don't want to get into anything because then she'll call and i'll just have to stop what i'm doing. oh well.

so yesterday was awesome. i love working there. 4 million times better than my boring ass monday to friday job [which ends in 5 days - party on]. i was pretty nervous to get up in front of the crowd, because it has been so long since i've done it, but as soon as i got up there, it all just came back and it was awesome. there was no nervousness, i didn't stumble at all. it was so much fun. hopefully every time is that great. i'm a little sad that my co-workers are going to change. the 2 awesome chicas i worked with yesterday will not be around on weekends after next week. one is moving away and one is moving to mon-fri. but i won't be there next weekend. all i can say is the new people have some pretty big shoes to fill. we'll see how it goes. maybe they'll hire some super hot science guy to work with me. he could be there purely as eye candy to make the day go by with a little more sparkle. haha!

have you ever read your horoscope on a particular day and it kinda freaked you out more than a little bit due to how accurate it seemed? not that i'm a big astrology buff or anything. i just read them every so often for fun. and i never take to heart what it's saying or try to analyze it and twist the words so it fits exactly into what's going on in my life at the moment. however. my horoscope for today that i just read has made a prediction for a situation that couldn't be any more identical to my own. without any twisting or over-analyzing whatsoever. weird. i've never had that happen before.

oh man. and, talladega nights? so funny. it was no anchorman, but still damn hilarious. the whole part where he stabs himself in the leg because he thinks he's paralyzed, i laughed so hard that i cried. i need to see it again. i missed half of it due to intense fits of laughter.

Ricky Bobby: Dear Lord baby Jesus, we thank you so much for this bountiful harvest of Dominos, KFC, and the always delicious Taco Bell. I just want to take time to say thank you for my family. My two sons, Walker, and Texas Ranger, or TR as wse call him. And of course my red hot smokin' wife Carley, who is a stone cold fox.
Carley Bobby: [raises hands] Woo!
Cal Naughton, Jr.: Mhmm!
Walker: [Along with Texas Ranger] Ow.

[that part is way funnier in the movie because of the flow. go see the movie. and call me if you need someone to see it with]

heaven.

i'm in heaven. what do i miss the most about being downtown everyday? lunch. jesus murphy i love food. and the chicken schwarma pita from venus pizza loves me. i'm not going to be fit to talk to visitors now though. holy garlic-breath, batman. good thing i stopped and got some gum on my way here this morning. i don't know if it will be enough though. and, to make this great day of great food even better, my co-workers today are of the highest quality. i could not be happier with them. together, t and i single handedly saved the day and c is the coolest new chick ever. and to top it all off, i will be playing with fire later. wicked.

no visitors yet though...
*hint hint*

good times.

it wasn't so bad. despite what you'd think, good times were had. punches were almost thrown and voices were raised, but in the end, there was no blood or violence. so that is excellent. i wasn't in a bad mood once i got there. dancing and shameless are the cure for my pissy mood. too bad i only have one more. next friday is the end. for now. school needs to come first. this drunk every friday night [except tonight] is too much time and money. i'll do sober activities that cost less than $60 a night. fo sho. but no more bars. at least for the month of september, and probably october. sad times. i'm expecting a sparklecaster as a farewell gift [kidding].

also, next time, i'm getting shit faced and you're driving.

and seriously. come visit me at work. you're all invited. i love visitors. just ask for me when you come in. it's worth it. it'll be so fun. do it.
if you don't know where i am, send me an e-mail.

happy saturday.

:)

it's friday!

two weeks from today, i have classes. the summer seemed to just stop all of the sudden. what happened there?

anyway, today is friday and i'm happy. friday means friday lunch, which means an hour and a half out of this soul sucking office. then after work, i'm gonna hit the gym, and then off to see shameless! oh man. it's gonna be a good night. hopefully i survive the shameless outting. sober at the copper penny? i dunno... could be sketchy. i have to work tomorrow morning so i don't want to be all hungover. and i don't really want to spend the money. so i'll drive and it'll still be great. next weekend will be the big drunken party.
pretty much the whole weekend is gonna be fantastic. i'm excited to work tomorrow. feel free to come visit. it'll make the day even better. and then after that i'm gonna hang out with some people i don't see very often. we're probably just gonna hit a movie or something, but it'll be good times none the less. i love weekends.

and then there were 8...

today, pluto was officially demoted from planet status. that's weird. i mean, i know there has always been debate and speculation about whether or not it was actually qualified to be called a planet. but i never thought they'd actually remove it from the list. they're going to have to re-print all the kids science books to reflect that fact now. i guess now it's classified as a "dwarf planet". crazy. you can read all about it here.

useless!

i have never come across a more useless person! i don't like saying that about someone, but i mean, COME ON!!! what have you been doing for the past 3 months that i've just been here! articles aren't listed on the pages, so i have to go through and figure out what ones aren't, and add them. links go to the wrong place, so i'm going through and checking and changing all the links, keywords weren't done, right or at all, so i sorted them all again, the google site map was a disaster so guess who's fixing that, or actually, starting it from the beginning? oh that's right! ME! good god! i can't believe that some people actually get paid and do nothing! it is so frustrating! how can someone take the money? and feel that they're owed it? you have to know that you're doing a completely half-assed job at everything! and did he think that the google map was actually going to fly? he thought he was going to be able to submit that and actually have it work? it looks like he did it in his sleep! you can't close a title tag with a description tag close! and you can't open a url tag with a title tag! and that's just one mistake! if you're going to work, do the job right! he's done at the end of the week anyway, so they're just being like, ok, bye. if it were up to me, he'd be getting the tell off e-mail of the century. there's no way i'd let him walk away thinking he was a stellar employee. i don't think i've ever been more annoyed. i hate this job. good thing i have dishwalla to help get me through it.

song of the day? no no, album of the day

man, i can't believe i only just got this cd. i had no idea what i was missing. opaline is an awesome cd. the whole thing. every song. it doesn't happen often that you love everything the first time you listen to it. i love j.r. richards' voice. if they came here, i would be a happy girl. i wish i had money to travel all over the place and see the bands that i like. that's what i want to do for the rest of my life. travel and see bands. can i do that for a living? who will pay me to do that? i'd be really good at it. yeah, i don't think it's gonna happen. oh well. anyway, the point of this is that everyone should hear this cd because it is fantastic and i am going to listen to it all day.

oh man. so much to say.

man, i just had a fantastic evening. an awesome end to my great day. went to the mall with mel where i dropped a ton of cash that i totally should not have dropped. wanna know what i got? sure ya do. an awesome tshirt, a great sweater, and 2 cds that i love. and i didn't spend 300 hours at the mall which is superbe because i hate the mall. it was very much an in and out trip. then, we stopped by holy cones for some izecream on our way out to the beach where we went for a walk. wicked.

[side note, jack johnson videos staring ben stiler are awesome. jack johnson videos staring jack johnson are wicked too.]

the beach was so nice. there were a lot of annoying little beach flies which sucked, but it was so warm and not windy. we could have stayed longer but the little fly bastards pissed us off way too much. so we left.
i'm really excited for my new cds. aqualung - strange and beautiful and dishwalla - opaline. i've wanted the dishwalla one for a long time but never got it. new cds are going to make my day go by much better. google site map? yippie skippie...

so...speaking of music. i enjoy it quite a bit. and i enjoy when other people enjoy music. and i also like it when i like something other people have never heard of. because i like to introduce people to new music. so, the point to all this is, last week i had someone in my car who heard a little bit of snow patrol playing. i love snow patrol. and he asked, who is this? and i said who it was and that i loved them and he said, "i don't like much. mostly i'll hear something and it will be some random obscure thing that no one has ever heard of before". so i have 2 things to say about this:

1. seems like an excellent opportunity to introduce someone to some new tunes

2. you like obscure? you should hook me up!

now. is it weird if i bring him a cd of snow patrol songs? just because of the circumstances of our....friendship? but why would a cd be bad? i think there is a certain level of at least familiarity if nothing else. i don't want to be too pushy.

however. confirmation of the non-weirdness has just been received. cds for the friend is an ok thing. i'll be happy if i get some random obscurity in return. do you hear that! i want some random obscurity in return! ah, what's the use. you won't see this.

later days.

a new day!

ok. after last nights mope-fest, i am feeling 300% better today. the sun is shining, i have new music, and almost everthing is right in my world. before going to bed last night i went on a hunt for new and exciting music. i discovered some great new-to-me bands and i am pumped. auqalung? where have you been all my life? i got a few songs off of the itunes music store, but now i'm on the hunt for a cd. i think that a trip to hmv is in order. i'm looking for a dishwalla cd too. i don't know what could make today any better. happy tuesday.

what a feeling in my soul
love burns brighter than sunshine
it's brighter than sunshine
let the rain fall, i don't care
i'm yours and suddenly you're mine
suddenly you're mine

-aqualung

what's new?

nothing. that's what. i hate when people ask me that. i never know what to say. another one is, how's your job? my job? it sucks. and i know that's not what people want to hear, but that's how i feel. i hate it. i can't wait until school starts. i am totally ready for a change of pace. new people, new surroundings, and back in the city. working on the darkside is awful. i miss downtown so much it hurts. the hour and a half on shitty metro transit is worth it. my ipod is my best friend. i can handle it. i can't believe i'm so bored already with this job and this summer. maybe 2 weeks till school isn't too much. this summer wasn't awesome. i mean, i did some fun stuff, but i've had better. for sure. i'm not going to have any random hilarious stories from this summer. i had 2 goals for this summer. one was to save a lot of money, which i didn't do, and the other one, well, it didn't happen either. i am definitely ready for something to happen. something good. not that bad things are happening. just, dull, mundane, stuck-in-a-rut things. i need to move out of my house. that's what i really need. i wish i had planned for that for this fall. next fall for sure. it's happening. loans are gonna kick me in the ass anyway, why not be happier?

song of the day #2

so today there are two songs of the day.
you're a sexy bitch. i just can't help myself.

dirty babe
you see these shackles baby i'm your slave
i'll let you whip me if i misbehave
it's just that no one makes me feel this way

-justin timberlake

song of the day

who remembers dishwalla? counting blue cars. you all know it. anyway, they are the lucky winners of song of the day. but not counting blue cars. every little thing.

i wish i could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
i wish i could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
some times
don't give me up
don't give me up tonight
or soon nothing will be right at all

-dishwalla

interesting.

so, as it turns out, there is such a thing as too many cheesies.

little orange bastards....

feels like home

today was great. seriously. as much as i complained and bitched about that place, i love it there. kids are so funny! i can't wait until i'm back on the floor and get to do the shows again and really have fun. one day a week won't burn me out or make me hate it. i'm excited. i mean, there are down sides to every situation. like, when people ask you questions and don't like the answer. there is no need to be rude. seriously. just because i don't know the best way to get to the 102 doesn't mean you should be rude to me. you don't know how to get there. give me a break. directions aren't what i'm getting paid for. anyway. that was the only bad part of my day. i'm there again on saturday and i get to do a show. i can't wait. i'm so excited! i love it. i really like being able to say i work there. it's kind of unique.
and what am i doing now? oh the lower deck. why? because someone is in a shit mood and feels like getting drunk. not me. i will be the driver. there is no way i'm drinking tonight. should still be good times though. signal hill sunday. i can think of how it could be better times though....

song of the day

don't wait, don't wait
the road is now a sudden sea
and suddenly, you're deep enough
to lay your armor down
to lay your armor down
to lay your armor down

don't wait, don't wait
the lights will flash and fade away
the days will pass you by
don't wait
to lay your armor down

-dashboard confessional

it's too soon!

school starts in 2 weeks and 5 days! 2 WEEKS AND 5 DAYS!! what?! how is that even possible? the summer went by way too fast. i'm not ready to go back to school yet. i'm still having fun doing summertime things like patio parties and the beach. so much is going to change this september. i don't know if i'm going to like it or not. i have a plan of attack and i hope that it all works out the way i want it to. we'll see i guess. i've heard some things about the classes i'm taking from people who have already taken them. sounds like they're going to be doable. i'm a little afraid for one or two of them but i expect to make it through alive. can't help but already be looking forward to christmas vacation though...

p.s. today is john stamos' birthday!! i think that he was my first ever crush. oh uncle jesse, you were so hot with your mullett and leather....

song of the day...

it’s nothing i planned
and not that i can
but you should be mine
across that line
if i traded it all
if i gave it all away for one thing
just for one thing
if i sorted it out
if i knew all about this one thing
wouldn’t that be something

-finger eleven

todays lesson

today i learned that 2 large coffees in a 3.5 hour period is too much coffee. holy high-strung, batman.

reunions

it's funny how when you haven't seen someone in 8 months because they moved, you assume they're going to be totally different because they got out of here and away from everything. but they're not at all. same stories, same problems, same attitude. i feel kind of guilty because we were close and i know i was there for her during some super tough times. but it just all became too much. the problems never ended. one person can only take so much. and maybe that makes me a terrible person. she's living it and i can't handle listening to her talk about what is going on. i want to. i really do. but when i have my own issues to deal with, it's really hard taking on someone elses too. especially when i feel bad for stressing over the things i stress over when maybe she is actually falling apart, you know? a lot of people walked when things were bad and i managed to survive it so why is this so hard to deal with? it's because it never changes. at what point does it all kick in and you actually learn your lesson? i hope it's soon. because i should have looked forward to the phone call. but instead i cursed myself for answering. i know. i'm awful.

AHHHHH!!!!!

THE GOO GOO DOLLS ARE COMING TO HALIFAX!!! NOVEMBER 21!!!!

who's happy? this guy.

i am not a techie!

ok. so i know how to install software. that's one thing. and who can't figure out how to plug in a computer? i don't mind. but. i do not know how to make the caller id work, i can't run wires, or make cables, and i have no idea why your internet isn't working if it's plugged in and your computer is on. just because i work in the tech department does not mean i am knowledgeable in all areas of the tech world. i write stuff. and compile data. that is it. and the writing is a stretch. i am not a writer. i have always had a job that involved entertaining and teaching children. this whole sitting at a desk thing is really strange. i'm very much looking forward to returning to my playing with kids job in september.

friends, acquaintances, and random passers through

sometimes there are people in your life who you see every so often, but they're just a random player in your life story. you know what i mean? the supporting cast. they're there, but not really in an important role. but somewhere along the way, even though it's still in that original context, you start spending more time with them. so because you actually know each others names, you've made that move from random passer through, to acquaintance. right? i mean, you know a bit more than just each others names. other personal details have been exchanged. anyway, at what point do you cross from acquaintance, to friend? your relationship is still confined to that same environment, so are you still just acquaintances? there have never been any real social gatherings, but you spend a good deal of time together when you do see each other. and you feel like you're getting to know the other person. so what's up? what is the definition of a friend? what are the qualifications? what makes us call someone a friend? and why is there so much concern by one party to call it a friendship? perhaps its because the more time you spend with them, you realize that you want to spend even more time with them. and you know that soon, meeting under these circumstances is going to become much less frequent. and maybe that's a little bit upsetting.

i don't want you to be a random passer through.

cheers

happy birthday.

i hope your day is a fantastic one.

from, me.

:)

future damnation

so i just did an online quiz that determines the level of hell i will be damned to. i got level 2. there are 9 levels. so i guess that's pretty good. only level 2. apparently my big downfall is that i'm too lustful. oh online quizzes....good times. if you're curious of your level of damnation, you can take the dante inferno hell test.

guilty pleasures

you know you shouldn't love it, but you just can't help yourself. you don't tell your friends about it for fear of ridicule. you can see them pointing and laughing when the thought of them finding out crosses your mind. you induldge in secret, hoping that it never comes out. but then you let someone use your ipod. and all of the sudden, it's all out in the open. you're a justin timberlake fan.

disappointments suck.

sometimes, even the people you least expect let you down. and even though it's the smallest thing, it hurts the most.

ouch.

drunk people need to pay closer attention to where other people's feet are. especially mine. i'd like to keep all my toes, thanks.
other than the toe crushing, great times were had by all.

saturday is better than friday

today is great. and it will be even better if the rain holds off. i went to a wedding today. it was great. i love weddings. i'm not going crazy looking for my own wedding. i just like going to them. they're so happy and everyone gets all dressed up. its fantastic. so congratulations go out to the happy couple who will be moving to england at the end of september. today also brings mike home from toronto until tuesday, which is awesome. hopefully i'll get to meet up with him later tonight for some good times at the ale house. that's the plan at this point! first though will be beer tent. oh man. good times...buskers beer tent. so fun! i don't even know why! it's hot and sweaty and beer is expensive and it's just signal hill, but damnit, i have fun every time. but i don't want to have to walk from the waterfront up to the ale house in a downpour. so that's why we're hoping for the rain to hold off.

what's with today, today?

usually fridays are awesome. how can they not be? another five days done of keyword sorting and paragraph writing and two full days of no work ahead of me. but not this week. this week needs a friday do-over. cranky work people and slacker work people stress me out. i've sorted though probably close to 100 000 keywords in the last 2 weeks and was completely ready for a new project. but because of other peoples laziness, i have another 10 000 keywords staring me in the face. happy monday.

and, i don't know if this is completely true or not, but when you ask someone a question, it's usually common courtesy to listen to the answer, is it not? and she wonders why i never tell her stuff. she tells me it hurts her that i don't talk to her, but every time i'm talking, she stops listening to me and starts watching whatever is on tv. doesn't matter what it is. i've been ignored for oprah, the news, the weather, entertainment tonight. you think it hurts that i don't talk? ever been ignored? i don't talk because you don't care. and if i do tell her something, she tells everyone! i lost my faith in her ability to keep things to herself a long time ago. i don't like walking into a room full of people i hardly know and they start asking me questions about personal things. just because you know them, doesn't mean i know them or want them to know everything about me. and i hate when people assume things. its worse when people assume things and then tell other people like it's the written in stone truth when it isn't at all. and then i have to correct those people when they ask me about it and then we both feel stupid. so now? all you get is whatever i'd be willing to tell any random stranger.

my next problem with today is all the craziness going on in the world. what's happening? it seems like every day things just get worse. 24 people have sent the entire world into an insane frenzy. how does something like that even happen? it's really scary and i'm not entirely sure what to even say about it. so maybe i shouldn't even be saying anything. but it has me nervous and i'm curious as to what the future holds. where will we all be in 10 years? or less even. if two planes flying into buildings brought about the response it did, where else can we go if this plan had worked out? how else do you retaliate? you're already fighting a war. which it seems isn't really going anywhere. you could say it's being won, but you could also say it's being lost. depends on your definition of each term. people are dying on all sides and there doesn't seem to be an end in sight. and now we have the situation in lebanon. which also isn't ending. no one can agree to terms for a cease fire. it all seems somewhat immature. like playground wars from when you were a kid. everyone wants to be the king of the castle, but when people don't get their way, they start throwing stones and stealing your toys. all sides are guilty of it at some point. and even if someone does "win", there will be nothing left in the the end. it's depressing and scary but what are you supposed to do? not leave your house? you can't live in fear of what might happen. but i want to know when the shit is going to hit the fan and it's all going to come crashing down around me. because i think that's where we're heading.

i know it could be worse...

this job is slowly sucking out my soul. seriously. i've had jobs that were just the same thing everyday, but nothing as bad as this one. i need to get out of here. i have never been so happy that a job was just for the summer before. i'm not happy that i don't like the job. i wish i did. because the people are good people. the thing i hate the most about here is that when people get pissy about work, they take it out on everyone around them. and that just makes other people pissy. i don't enjoy being in a bad mood because other people are being jerks.
so now i'm just being totally unproductive. i feel bad because i'm getting paid to sit here, but i just don't want to work anymore. not today. i thought that coming in late would make the day go faster, but it's going so slow i think i just saw the clock move backwards. i feel distracted. like my mind is a thousand miles away and has left my body here to rot in this chair. actually, i am distracted. completely. and i know exactly where my mind has gone on its little vacation. i wish i could be there with it.

what if

oooooh, that's right
let's take a breath, jump over the side
oooooh, that's right
how can you know it if you don't even try?
oooooh, that's right
every step that you take
could be your biggest mistake
it could bend or it could break
but that's the risk that you take

-coldplay

how is that even possible?

my mom told me an interesting story this morning. i guess the other day she was out with a friend of hers at some coffee shop and she saw the woman who taught me grade primary. my mom recognized my former teacher, but didn't say anything to her because she didn't expect the teacher to know who she was. mrs macneil (teacher) saw my mom and went up to her and said hi and asked how she was. my mom was pretty surprised that mrs macneil recognized her and assumed that it was just from seeing her around the school because she helped out sometimes when my brother went there. he didn't have her as a teacher and i am 5 years older than him. but then, mrs macneil asked how i was doing, by name! she totally remembered me! i was in grade primary almost 20 years ago. 20 years! and my teacher sees my mom and remembers me? floored. that's what i am. i can't believe it. my mom told her that i was doing well...going to dal, and mrs macneil said, oh i'm not surprised at all. she was such a smart kid. wow. i'm fairly blown away by the fact that she remembered me and praised me even after all this time. how many kids has she seen pass through her classroom over her career? i'm touched. seriously. whether i should be or not. it's the feel-good story of the day.

well that was fantastic.

safari just quit. just like that. quit. for no reason. i didn't do anything at all to it and it just quit. stupid safari. yeah, that's right. i'm a mac user. and i love my mac. even though msn messenger is a bitch, and sometimes you don't see all the features of a website, i was willing to look past that because i love everything else about my mac. including safari. until right now. after the intense battle i had with indesign earlier today, i am in no mood for programs quitting on me for no reason and information being lost. what if i had been in the process of writing one of the most profound pieces of literary genius to ever have been put into words? and safari quits and it's gone. all i can say is, good thing i wasn't. good thing all i was writing about was the one thunder clap i thought i heard and how i just wished that i'd hear more. i'm beginning to think that i was totally just hearing things. i'm not crazy. just sometimes i hear phantom thunder claps. that's perfectly ok.
anyway, about this thunder, if lightening were to accompany said thunder, it would be even better. i wish thunder storms lasted longer. they always seem to be so short. the best place to watch thunder and lightening is lawrencetown beach. but usually by the time you get out there, its over. i live just far enough away. lawrencetown beach is good for watching meteor showers too. that was awesome. i did that one november. it was freezing cold but totally worth it. i want to do it again. but i've never found another willing participant and i'm not so keen on sitting out on a freezing cold beach in the middle of the night by myself. sounds like a blast, eh? freezing cold beach in the middle of the night...maybe that's why no one else has ever wanted to come with me....

feels like...odd.

it's strange to hear people say that they read my blog. or that they have, or that they're going to read my blog. do you really read it? i guess its strange because really, i do it for me. i mean, i like that people read it. and i know people know that its here and people stumble randomly upon it, but it's still a strange feeling. my life doesn't seem that interesting that someone would want to take time out of their day to read up on the random babbling that comes out of my head.

also on the topic of "odd", my parents ended up out at the same bar i was tonight. it was not planned. i don't mind that they were there at all. hanging out with my parents, which may seem lame, does not really bother me. what bothered me the most was that i had a car and when they showed up i had a beer in my hand. it was only the one beer that i had the entire night and it was way early in the evening. so i'm not some drinker-and-driver. i just felt like i had been caught doing something wrong. the whole, hand in the cookie jar thing, you know? anyway, hopefully the other people there didn't find it weird.

it is definitely time for bed now. tomorrow is going to be full of finishing up everything for anna's wedding so she can get it printed. the wedding is saturday! so soon!

funny

as a former lifeguard, i couldn't help but laugh at this.
keep cool

sharks and minnows=best game ever. especially when it's full contact tackle sharks and minnows.

candy-coated surprises

it's funny how your expectations for an evening can be blown completely out of the water by one small thing. you assume that it's going to be the same as always, and it mostly is, but the details change everything and make it a better night. good people and good music. can't really go wrong. unless someone gets a little too "rowdy" and gives the finger to someone else. but perhaps said flipping off occured because there was confusion about some "drinky drinky" motions that were made. either way, it was all in good fun and not meant to be insulting in any way. i'd watch a band with you anytime. even though you don't like hockey.

rain

and it's friday. and it's raining. it has 6 hours to rain itself out or i will not be a happy girl. it's lame for me to be this excited but i just can't help myself.

Comic 639: Speeding bullet

bigger than cheeses

30 degrees is too much

it is so hot outside, and hot at work and hot at my house. and it seems i still didn't learn lesson number 3 from saturday night. jeans in 30 degree weather...not nice. and, speaking of weather, the weather network says it's going to rain on friday. why does it have to rain on friday! i'm going to the lower deck! outside! it was nice today, it's going to be nice tomorrow, and saturday and sunday. but friday is going to rain. blah. but i guess it is still only wednesday. friday is a whole 2 days away. anything could happen by friday.
went to the red stag last night. good times. got the grand tour from adam. and what that means is that i go to the lower deck way too often because adam knows who i am from there. anyway, its really nice and the patio is awesome. i hope it does really well.
and in an hour? getting my hair cut!! fantastic. i'm so excited. it needs to be cut. i should do something really crazy. what do we think? short and spiky? or maybe dyed pink? hmmmm.....

heh heh heh....

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welcome home!

leo is home! i'm so happy. fantastic.