drunken

i am way too drunk to deal with tomorrow. its 3:15am. ugh. i have to get up at 7:30.

also, my love for anderson cooper goes way WAY beyond my physical attraction for him.

and i had a huge discussion [as serious as one can get when 6 to 8 beer have been consumed] about what is attractive and what i am looking for and what i deserve in a relationship. it was decided amongst the group that i deserve way more than what i want at this moment in time. but i think that i deserve exactly what i want. i know what i want and what kind of people want me and i think that what i want is exactly right for me at this time [i don't know who wants me at this exact moment in time, but i know the people who used to want me, are not what i want. but the people i want are exactly what i'm looking for, as far as i know].

ok. it is 3:20am. anderson cooper 360 is on and talking about the humanitarian crisis in Africa. I still need to call the student loan people to find out if i can go to Africa. it all rests on them. which sucks. because i'd like to go more than anything. too bad i'm not independently wealthy.