what's with today, today?

usually fridays are awesome. how can they not be? another five days done of keyword sorting and paragraph writing and two full days of no work ahead of me. but not this week. this week needs a friday do-over. cranky work people and slacker work people stress me out. i've sorted though probably close to 100 000 keywords in the last 2 weeks and was completely ready for a new project. but because of other peoples laziness, i have another 10 000 keywords staring me in the face. happy monday.

and, i don't know if this is completely true or not, but when you ask someone a question, it's usually common courtesy to listen to the answer, is it not? and she wonders why i never tell her stuff. she tells me it hurts her that i don't talk to her, but every time i'm talking, she stops listening to me and starts watching whatever is on tv. doesn't matter what it is. i've been ignored for oprah, the news, the weather, entertainment tonight. you think it hurts that i don't talk? ever been ignored? i don't talk because you don't care. and if i do tell her something, she tells everyone! i lost my faith in her ability to keep things to herself a long time ago. i don't like walking into a room full of people i hardly know and they start asking me questions about personal things. just because you know them, doesn't mean i know them or want them to know everything about me. and i hate when people assume things. its worse when people assume things and then tell other people like it's the written in stone truth when it isn't at all. and then i have to correct those people when they ask me about it and then we both feel stupid. so now? all you get is whatever i'd be willing to tell any random stranger.

my next problem with today is all the craziness going on in the world. what's happening? it seems like every day things just get worse. 24 people have sent the entire world into an insane frenzy. how does something like that even happen? it's really scary and i'm not entirely sure what to even say about it. so maybe i shouldn't even be saying anything. but it has me nervous and i'm curious as to what the future holds. where will we all be in 10 years? or less even. if two planes flying into buildings brought about the response it did, where else can we go if this plan had worked out? how else do you retaliate? you're already fighting a war. which it seems isn't really going anywhere. you could say it's being won, but you could also say it's being lost. depends on your definition of each term. people are dying on all sides and there doesn't seem to be an end in sight. and now we have the situation in lebanon. which also isn't ending. no one can agree to terms for a cease fire. it all seems somewhat immature. like playground wars from when you were a kid. everyone wants to be the king of the castle, but when people don't get their way, they start throwing stones and stealing your toys. all sides are guilty of it at some point. and even if someone does "win", there will be nothing left in the the end. it's depressing and scary but what are you supposed to do? not leave your house? you can't live in fear of what might happen. but i want to know when the shit is going to hit the fan and it's all going to come crashing down around me. because i think that's where we're heading.