winter has arrived.

damn its cold out today. i hate it. i woke up freezing cold this morning and i haven't been able to get warm all day. despite wearing wooly socks and a sweater. right now i'm sitting in the library atrium right next to a beautiful hot air vent.

feels

like

heaven

i have class in 20 mins and i do not want to move. i don't think i've ever felt so warm and cozy in my whole life.

there is no way i'm going to class without coffee or tea or some other scalding hot burn my esophagus type beverage.

p.s. 2 months till i'm 25. scary.

sleepy.

know what is not fun?

being at school at 7:15am. tim horton's isn't even open yet.

lab exams are also not fun.

p.s. in-flight safety on december 2 @ the marquee..... eh?

confusion sets in

today, awesome things happened.

my great big sea calendar came in the mail, and i got a B+ on my philosophy paper that is worth 40%. awesome.

so why is it then, on this day of awesome things, that i feel like crying?

good times.

picture messaged 'cheers' from a good friend in toronto is awesome.

cheers to you too, man. you made my night. thanks so much.

disgusted.

is it even possible to be any more of a lowlife bastard? i don't think so.

why do people need to be such unbelieveable jerks? why can't people think things through? just look 5 minutes into the future and realize that their actions have consequences. for real. i don't understand how some people can think that they are the centre of the universe.

maybe someday these people will get theirs. because no one deserves to be so completely walked on like that.

too hungover for creative titles

going out on thursday night is a good idea at the time, but it makes for one awful friday. i would give anything to be in bed right now.

anything

instead i'm sitting in the library waitng for class to start. i might not make it.

but last night was a lot of fun.

except the married guy. seriously, it's guys like him that make me hate guys. he was wearing a wedding ring. i saw it. and then he started being flirty with me, and he took his ring off! jerk! i called him on it and he started saying that he wasn't doing anything wrong. not true. he took his ring off. i bet his wife would have said that was wrong. it really annoyed me.

know what else is annoying? people who sit at computers and use their laptop. man, there are too many people and not enough computers. don't be so stupid.

anyway, that's enough whining. its time for class. i might fall asleep.

oh, and i agreed to dog-sit over xmas. so excited.

don't hate me cuz i babble

why does it feel like friday?

probably because i have to work tomorrow and i keep thinking about it and i usually only work saturdays.

it'll be good to work tomorrow. like i said, i'm only ever there saturday so there is about 98% of the staff that i never see because they work monday to friday. so that's cool. but i'm not so pumped about giving up my day off. i usually use thursdays to be totally productive. i sleep in, watch a lot of movies, wear my pajamas, catch up on my day-time tv, you know, the really important stuff. actually, what thursday has really turned into for me is a day full of guitar playing. i don't really play for people, so during the day on thursday is really the only time when no one is home. so i play then. but not this week. oh well. i need money so this will be good.

so i saw the hot bus driver again today. that's 2 days in a row. i don't know if there has actually been an influx of hot bus drivers, or if it's just that i'm getting older, but there never used to be hot bus drivers. it's only been in the last year that i've started noticing them. but i will definitely not ever be one of those women who sits at the front of the bus flirting with the driver. with the whole exaggerated laugh and all that. no way.

know what else i've seen a lot lately? people crying. a girl in my genetics tutorial started crying in tutorial yesterday. she got up and left. i don't know why she started crying. we were talking about gel electrophoresis. not a very sad topic. i think the ta saw her first. he stopped talking and was looking and then everyone just kinda looked at the girl. i hope she's ok. and then today i was in the library and i saw another crying girl. weird, eh? i cried on the bus once. it sucked. at least in a class or something you can get up and walk away but where are you gonna go when you're on the bus? but at the same time i suppose we all know who she was so next week when she comes to tutorial, we'll all think, she cried last week. but on the bus, i was totally anonymous. no one knew me. i wonder what people thought who saw me crying.

also, today i realized that new years eve is a sunday. that changes things. non-new years things. i don't have any new years plans. i'm not really a big new year's fan. its always way too built up and the night never lives up to your expectations. you work so hard to plan something and buy a new outfit and all that and then its just another drunken night but you spend the whole night waiting for the awesome to happen. and it never does. and all my friends are all in relationships this year [wow. i just realized that. all my friends are in relationships. really? yes. i can only think of one who isn't. wow]. and i'm not a couple so that kinda sucks. who wants to hang out with a bunch of couples when they're alone? no one. last year i didn't even bother trying to make plans and it was good. i'm doing the same this year. no plans.

ok. this post is starting to make me feel mopey. so i'm gonna end it now. and i doubt anyone is still reading anyway. too verbose for some, i'd imagine *wink*

iiiinteresting....

i was just asked to house/dog-sit over christmas.

for 10 days.

dec 19 to the 29. 10 days away from my family.

and they have a dog! and i could take it for walks! and they live near the hydrostone and i like that area.

this could be good...

i'm obsessed with pickles

it's true. i put them on everything. my favourite? hamburgers and tuna fish sandwiches. not hamburgers and tuna fish together. those are two seperate meals. should i write, i like pickles on hamburgers, as well as on tuna fish sandwiches? ahh i think we all know what i mean.

anyway, what i actually wanted to say was that while i was on the bus on my way home, i had this great thing that i wanted to write about. but i didn't have my computer with me. and now that i'm home and have eaten my gouda and pickles, i forget what it was that i wanted to say. balls.

but i will say this. tonight is the goo goo dolls concert. and i'm still not going. and i'm still pissed. if i could hear 'slide' being performed live by the goo goo dolls, i'd be a happy happy girl. but alas, it won't be happening. did i mention i was pissed?

and it annoys me when you have a joke with someone, and when you first had the joke it was hilarious but the other person then proceeds to keep making the joke, 340957234 times over. and then it's not funny anymore. but they still keep making the joke. and by this point its so ground and beaten and smashed into such a fine, gray powder, it is no longer recognizable as the hilarious thing it once was.

and the song of the day should be slide in honour of the goo goo dolls, but it's not. the song of the day is windfall by son volt. you should all go listen to it. i'm not going to post lyrics because i want you to listen to it and hear them for yourself.

ok, maybe slide gets to be the honourary song of the day. like how movie stars get honourary degrees from universities. it's just a status symbol. but the real meaning just isn't there. it didn't work to get to be the song of the day. it just is by default. windfall actually put it's heart and soul into being the song of the day. slide did not. but i love it anyway. so here it is.

and i'll do anything you ever
dreamed to be complete
llittle pieces of the nothing that fall
may put your arms around me
what you feel is what you are
and what you are is beautiful
may do you wanna get married
or run away

-goo goo dolls

lets just go lie on the ice. for real.

grr-argh

tomorrow is the goo goo dolls concert. and i'm not going. and this is how i feel about it:


p.s. i realized today that the next time could be the last time. i'm undecided on how i feel about that. it's shit for sure but maybe it's not at the same time. i dunno.

p.p.s. my dog lived through the night. incase you were wondering. we're still not sure what was wrong with her. we're gonna change her food to some low-fat, easy to digest for dogs 7 and older food. even though she's not going to be 7 until january. she didn't go to the vet though. they suggested we try the food first. still scary. this is her. she's awesome.

p.p.p.s. i love that as my "friend", such concern was shown for my sick dog... thanks for calling/text messaging/e-mailing me to ask if she was ok after my freak out on saturday night... oh no wait, you didn't do any of those things. am i surprised? no.

p.p.p.p.s.[how many of these can you have?] i just ordered this shirt off threadless. i love their shirts. and this one makes me happy.

aaaaand sober.

nothing sobers you up after a night of drinking quite like 1:35am phone calls from your brother in a panic because he thinks your dog is dying.

yeah.

and what can possibly be done about it from the copper penny parking lot? your options are:

1. call the parents and tell them [and freak them out to no end - what can they do from cape breton?]

2. shut the hell up about it because there is nothing i can do until i get home so just wait

3. pick her up and drive her to the vet emergency

what was picked? option 2.

i get home and we proceed to have a 1.5 hour conversation about what's wrong with her and what we should do about it.

we decided that since she got up and walked, and drank some water and went outside, and came back in and lied down, we should just wait till tomorrow morning to call the parents. but there is definitely something wrong with her.

she better still be breathing when i get up tomorrow morning.

man, i'm not going to sleep at all tonight. worried.

p.s. not to take anything away from the situation with my dog cuz it's pretty much the scariest thing ever, but seriously? heels? what was i thinking?

helloooo weekend!

i love fridays.

i love that i can not do homework on friday night and it's guilt free.

this is what i did today:

1. wrote a paper for my justice and global perspective class

2. got a flu shot and now my arm hurts a lot

3. went to the mall - i bought shoes! i never buy shoes! black and high heals! so cute!

4. ate awesome supper that i got for my brother and i - i love macaroni salad and gouda cheese

i think i'm gonna go to bed early tonight because i've not been sleeping well lately and i have to work tomorrow and i'm going out tomorrow night. yeah, i know i said i was skipping the out tomorrow night, but its going to be cloudy so i won't be able to see the meteors anyway. but i'll probably still drive. i need to not spend money and i don't want to be hungover on sunday. know what i might do sunday?

go back to the mall!

i need some business casual [what that is exactly, i'm not sure] for the awards next week. i have a skirt but i need a good shirt to wear with it. and i have my new shoes now! happy!

i wish my arm didn't hurt so much though...

do you love awesome?

then you will love 'death of me' by buck 65.

you can download it for free on his website. buck65.com. then go to show and tell. i can't give you the direct link because he uses frames. damn frames. but there are 5 new songs there for free download.

they all will blow your socks off. but 'death of me' takes the cake. awesome.

however

you need to listen to it with headphones on. to really hear it. i'm not lying. try it.

i don't know how he does it, but he blows me away every time.

conundrum!

i might skip shameless on saturday night.

i know. shocker, eh?

this meteor shower thing has me crazed. i want to see it so bad.

so.

bad.

but skipping fun times with friends just leaves me alone to go see the meteor shower. and as much as i want to see it, sitting alone on the beach in the middle of the night is not how i want to do it.

actually, i don't even care. i'll sit at the beach by myself. i really want to see the meteors!

[weather update - 10:30pm: IT'S GOING TO RAIN ON SATURDAY!!! BOLLOCKS!!!!]

celebrations and sadness

first the celebration

this is post number 200 for me! 200!! wow. that's a lot of random ramblings from me.

next the sadness

i really want to see the meteor shower on saturday night. this could be the last good one ever [well, maybe not ever...but for a very very long time]! the comet is on it's way back out into the solar system and the next 33 year fly by might not happen because of jupitor! bitches!

my friends at space.com say that you will probably be able to see some meteors [a few every hour] in the pre-dawn hours friday, saturday and sunday but they expect a burst of activity around 11:45pm est [a few every minute]. this burst of activity is expected to last for 2 hours or so.

so even if i get out of the penny around 2 [ast] and the meteors are still seeable until 2:45ish, i'm going to be in the middle of the city!! boo-urns. i'd like to say that i'll get up on friday or saturday at some crazy pre-dawn hour to see the meteors, but i have class on friday morning and work on saturday morning. so i probably won't be getting up pre-dawn. i could just stay up saturday night...

if i don't have any beers and drive to the penny on friday....i could leave there and go out to the beach and see the meteors.

beautiful

anyone want to come with?

watch it.

good times had by all

man, how much fun was last night?

it was a mini reunion. island friends, vancouver friends, here friends, all back together! i love that we were all friends in high school and we're still good friends now. and we all get together and its just like it always was! we are the only people i know who loved high school.

and i saw one of my ta's. not the philosophy one. the biology one. he's only 22! he didn't think that i was almost 25. i don't feel like i'm almost 25. anyway, he's in one of my philosophy classes now and we have another philosophy class together after xmas but he said before he was gonna drop it because he was sucking at this one. last night i tried to convince him that we should be philosophy buddies. i don't know if i was convincing or not.

oh lab will be interesting on tuesday...

and can i just say, i heart the lower deck! i love that even if there is a huge crowd of people waiting to order drinks, i get one slid my way. it pays to be a regular. however, i haven't been there so regularly lately. it makes me a little sad actually. but my bank account loves it.

happy sunday!!

oh man. can't wait. out of towners are home for the weekend and tonight, it's all about the lower deck.

i am so excited.

i haven't been to the deck in a while [friday after the navy boat doesn't count - it was 30 seconds] and i have yet to witness the new signal hill.

plus friends from the island!

and it might be a reunion too! vancouver friends and island friends haven't seen each other in years! [hopefully vancouver friends come]

so happy!!

friday night good times

know where i wish i was right now?

anywhere but sitting in my room,

doing nothing,

with no plans at all.

BORED!!

november means meteor shower!!

that's right kids. every november we get to see the leonid meteor shower. what is the leonid meteor shower? it is debris from the comet temple-tuttle that crosses the earths path every 33 years. so every 33 years, the show is supposedly amazing. the last one was 1998 and between then and 2002, the meteors were more than 1000 per hour. i saw the one in 2001. it was amazing. i had never seen a meteor shower before. cold sitting out at lawrencetown beach, but totally worth it.

i haven't seen it since then. probably because no one wants to go sit out at a beach in november.

so apparently this year shoudln't be overly spectacular because the comet is on its way back out to the far reaches of the solar system. but i guess they're predicting meteors at the rate of 100 to 150 per hour. not too shabby. according to space.com the peak will be on saturday november 18 at 11:45pm EST [12:45am AST]. i want to see it.

but

i will be at the copper penny. or so the plan is at this point. i don't think that if i run out into the parking lot at 12:45 i'll be able to see anything. i'll be in the middle of the city. you need to be not in the middle of the city to see it. damnit.

so when is the next great meteor storm? 2028. i'll be around for that.

but

apparently that year jupitor is expected to throw comet temple-tuttle off from its current course through space. so we won't see it.

DAMNIT!

oh andy!

i'm dreamin 'bout those dreamy eyes!


apparently cnn has implemented a dress code - black suit, white shirt, royal blue tie. anderson and john king are pretty much twins tonight with their silver hair and blue eyes. their suits were even both pin striped.

david gergen was even following the plan. michael ware however seems to have not gotten the memo. casual navy button up shirt and fleece jacket? nice try. good thing he has that sexy accent to make up for this indiscretion.

i actually do watch the news to be informed...i'm not just about attractive anchormen [although it is a nice little plus]... attractive anchormen can only take you so far. you have to actually have an interest to be the cnn addict that i am.

p.s. the awesome shots of the "twins" are courtesy of phebe at all things anderson.

i hate the library.

why? because the super quiet you're all alone study areas are too creepy quiet. i don't like extreme isolation. but in the more open study areas you end up with jack johnson look-a-likes and their annoying girlfriends sitting across from you at your table. it was my table first! i mean, i have no problem sharing. the table is big enough. but seriously, don't come sit down across from me, facing me, and start being all tickling each other and pretending you're studying and passing notes. because it's distracting. i didn't join your snuggle fest. you joined my study fest. i have a genetics exam in less than 3 hours. i need to focus. so stop it.

and what's up with her just eating your food? dude i watched her take the spoon right out of your hand!

i need a new table.

also, looks like i'm going to a wedding next summer/fall. interesting. there's another reason the library is weird. it's so quiet and i'm sitting here trying not to laugh out loud...

p.s. i love my cell phone.

[edit] reese cups!!! i forgot i had them!! yum.

[edit again] ok, the democrats winning the house in the US election is fantastic. but they could win the senate as well! AND rumsfeld is stepping down! ha! what a great day in american politics.

nurse! pass me a scalpel!

man, i want to go to med school so. bad.

i have never felt so sure about anything in my whole life. for me, that's really saying something. i have never been overly confidant of my abilities to cross certain bridges and have wimped out in the past. but upon facing these same bridges again recently, i have managed to make my way across. slowly, and with a bit of an upset stomach, but i made it none the less.

my inspiration to go to med school comes from a bit of a stupid source that i'm not really comfortable blogging about. but i am grateful for it, and someday [if i make it] i will tell you all what hit me.

and no, it wasn't hoping that i'd run into a super hot john stamos-esque med student along the way. although, that would be a bonus.

why am i on this rant today you ask? because this morning i dissected a cockroach. if you know me at all you know that is a near impossible to comprehend sentence i have just put together. yes, ladies and gentlemen, I dissected a cockroach. if i can do that, i can do anything.

now all i need to do is not let myself down. i am a super-procrastinator extraordinare and i tend to disappoint myself quite often when it comes to school work. but recognizing that you have a problem is the first step to over coming it, right?

on that note, i'm off to study genetics.

tomorrow.

who knows what tomorrow is? that's right! election day in the US. why am i mentioning this? because the outcome of this election has the potential to change the world. it's amazing how the elections and the people in power in a country that is not your own can have an affect on your life none the less. the US is the worlds superpower and whether we like it or not, they have the control. look at the iraq situation! they dove head first into that without the backing of the UN. sketchy. and now they're in over their head. this election can change everything. hopefully the people get out and do what they need to do and then AC360 can stop being about all the stupid campaign games that are being played.

maybe i am a philosopher?

after that B i got on the first paper, i was pretty pumped. but then i got a C+ on the next paper. so i was ripped back down out of the clouds pretty quickly. and then? A+! WHAT?! yeah. now, i can't take all the credit. it was a group project. but still. wow. i've never gotten an A+ on anything ever in my whole entire life. this philosophy thing is totally new to me. and i'm happy. now i just need to get an A+ on my genetics exam on wednesday and on the philosophy paper i just handed in today... doubtful.

blah

i have to write my ethics essay. to be discussed: is nuclear energy an environmentally responsible solution to the energy crisis? value on my term: 40%

but i can't focus.

i feel like dirt for the pre-edit version of my entry from friday night. why was i such a moron? the annoying thing about it is, i'm not usually that moronic. i don't know what came over me. actually, yes i do [i think this is the answer to the moron question]. drinking is nothing but trouble. and drinking combined with feelings [that do actually exist] leads to an over reaction on the grandest of scales.

damnit.

i am truly sorry.


song of the day

this is the last time
that i'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time, i will fall
into a place that fails us all, inside

-dishwalla

yikes.

i am so sorry.

i broke my own blogging rules. i forgot it even happened until i got home from work.

it's my fault. it will stop. i promise.

see you around.

yes. i am drunk blogging.

so in an unexpected turn of events, i got to see my favourite cover band tonight. not for very long though. but short is better than nothing. first, i was on a canadian navy ship. that's right. on a navy ship. drinking beer. for free. that's where your tax dollars are going. free beer for our navy guys and gals, and their friends. and tons of food. tonight i saw the biggest mountain of chicken wings i have ever seen in my whole life. i went through a phase of wanting to join the navy. but then i was on the ship. and i would definitely have a clausterphobia attack. holy cramped quarters batman. anyway then we went to the lower deck. and saw my cover band.
so tomorrow i have to work. 6 hours and 20 mins till i have to get up. that sucks. come visit.
i know the rule is no drunk blogging but i'm waiting for food to cook. i can't help it. and the foods are ready so this is the end.

ever hung upside down from your shower curtain rod?

because that's what we talked about today in my philosophy tutorial. i think that everyone had the same mental image of the ta hanging from his shower rod. we all laughed. a lot. and so did he.

and he read us this poem. by adam dickinson. i don't remember what it was called, and it's really bugging me. anyway, there was this line that said something like, my hands in your hair... i don't really remember that either because all i could think was, don't drool. haha it was so funny because i think that a lot of the girls in my class have a crush on him and they were all just like, *blank stare* as he was reading it. i'm definitely included in the crush on ta group. every time i see him i get a little more crushy. haha! it's just because he's so well spoken and funny. and a phd student. so, smart? although i think that's just a "stereotype" of the phd student. i'm sure there are some dumbass phd students out there. but whatever. it's not a real crush. it's just one of those stupid like, fangirl crushes you get that you have absolutely no expectations of ever turning out. a "healthy" crush, i like to call it. it's the same as my crush on marc garneau, or zach braff.

make that three things...

3. is it weird that i sympathize with crazy stressed out burnt hand girl?

two things...

1. i HATE self-absorbed, shallow people.

2. that scene in the first 5 minutes of er is pretty much my dream. oh my god john stamos. did you see that? hot.